Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Today we found out...

that our little 3rd Embryo didn't make it.  I am overcome with sadness at the moment.  I know God has a plan.  I know He does.  I know He has that precious little life in His hands now, rather than in the incubator in the embryology lab.  I don't know why this little embryo didn't make it so that we could freeze it and give it a chance at life in the future.  I don't know why.  I'm sad.  I'm scared.  These two little embryos in me are the last chance I have at having a baby.  I am on my two week wait till the pregnancy test, and I am doing my best to stay relaxed and calm, positive for these two emby-babies in me at the moment.  For now, I will enjoy the life in me, pray that it stays, and hope for the best.  That's all I can do.  I told you I would keep you updated every step of the way, so I will.  For now, we will heal from this loss once again and try to focus on these two little lives in me right now and know that God has a plan and fortunately He has got it all under control.  I will give my worry and fear to Him, I lay it all down and go to the cross.   

5 comments:

  1. PRAYING with you!!!! Everything works out for His glory!!! We might not understand it right now but we will one day. Maybe when you get to heaven you will see your baby and find out he or she would have been born with a painful disease or something that God just couldnt put him or her through...never know. God knows best! Stay positive Nd I havent stopped praying for ya. Love ya in Christ and I know we will meet one day...up there for sure :) Cant wait to meet your precious babies <3 Hope your week gets only better from this point. And know that as soon as i click "post" someone is praying for your emby-babies, so lay your hand on your tummy and accept it. :) cant wait to hear your next update. :O) have a good night...

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  2. ok i just prayed...I prayed life into your woom, I prayed that the devil would be bound in the Name Of Jesus, I prayed that the spirit of infertility be bound in the Name of Jesus, I prayed that you would be filled with calmness, and I prayed for blessings for you and your family. In Jesus Name Amen!!!!!

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  3. Vicki, THANK YOU! I don't even know you and feel so close to you. One of the things I am thankful for this Thanksgiving is YOU! You're amazing and so encouraging to me! Thank you for having the spirit of Jesus that you have! I can't wait for you to begin your journey with IVF!!!! So excited for you!!!!!! :)

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  4. E, don't let that discourage you! We started with 20 eggs that made 14 embryos-only 5 survived to day 6. We transfered 2 on day 5(which became our twins) and froze 3-one of them they aren't even sure if he/she will survive the thaw. Its very very common for some embryo's to arrest by day 6. You did nothing wrong and the ones snuggling in now are in the best possible place-mommy's womb ;)

    I know you are disappointed, but God's plan is perfect. Keep talking to those beautiful babies and imagine how wonderful it will be to meet them/him/her in August! Keep your head up!

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  5. Aw, A....I needed to hear those words...badly! Thank you so much for ALWAYS being my source of inspiration, positivity, and encouragement! You keep me going sometimes when I am so negative, and you don't even know it! I can't tell you how thankful I am for your friendship. I am blessed blessed blessed. <3 you.

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