I don't know where to begin. I don't know how to even describe to you how we are feeling, the emotions we have been going through.
All I can do is tell you the journey, and every part of it, good or bad.
So here is the video I took of some emotions I was going through yesterday. Sorry it is not very clear, I recorded the video from my computer since it was broken up in 3 different videos originally. Anyway, here goes.
Man this sucks! I can't c the video on my phone. :( I have to wait til I get home to my laptop. Hoping its good news!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry...I dont even know what to say to you. I will be praying that God helps you and your husband through this hard time. I do want to say thankyou for posting, even though I know it had to be hard. When I do my cycle I know theres two ways it can turn out. If it wasnt for these videos people going through IVF would just plan on a good outcome. But videos like yours prepare (in a way) people for good and bad outcomes. I know nothing can compare you for this bad news but I think in some small weird way it opens your eyes. I wish I could just hug u and take u to a Hillsong concert or something. You are a trooper. I will keep u in my prayers now for a miracle or that you come into alot of money :)But just remember for your little embabies...its not good bye...its see you later.
ReplyDeleteGod bless. Let me know how your doing k?
I hope you all the best! And I really hope you still have a wonderful Merry Christmas with your family.
Oh I am so sorry. I literally cried watching your videos. I know words can not express how deeply I sympathize for you. I posted a new video on my youtube page this afternoon. Looks like out of my 9 follies, only two are getting big and the others aren't. This IVF cycle is not looking good for us at this point and I am pretty devastated. I hope God hears our prayers and blesses us as parents very soon, in whatever way we may choose to go about it. Man that song, makes me bawl, seriously I can't stop crying while listening to it. God bless you and your husband, may He heal our hearts and ease our suffering. Please keep us posted on your continued journey. (((BIG HUGS))) - IVFCaliGirl
ReplyDeletejust noticed you had a 2nd video on here. For some reason it didnt show up earlier :/ I just wanted to say again, that I am so sorry. My heart breaks for you! I also wanted to tell you not to give up hope. God does do miracles...my sister is one.
ReplyDeleteShe went camping one year and fainted and couldnt walk after that. She was totally bed ridden. The Dr's said she had a disease caused by nerve damage or something like that.
Anyway, she was in the hospital for a year at a time maybe more. She practically lived at the hospital. The Dr called my dad and said at one point she might not make it through the night. We prayed and prayed and prayed, believing God for a miracle. She got a trake, was on oxygen, and shook so bad from spasticity. She got to the point that she could walk pretty good from with therapy so I decided to take her camping. We threw a quarter on a map of Michigan and it landed in Grand Haven. So off we went to camp. It was raining and we couldnt get our fire started so 2 guys camping behind us asked us if we wanted to eat with them, we did. She is married to Bruce...he is one of those guys. :) God works in mysterious way! She ended up getting pretty sick again and her husband took care of her. She couldnt even hold her head up, my brother in law had to make something that tied around the head rest to hold her head up. She had a special wheel chair that was a standing wheel chair. She was on over 40 meds a day I think she said at one time. She had to swim with a life jacket. She loved babies but she couldnt even hold them cuz she was too weak. She always said she wanted to have like 10 kids. The Dr's said she would never have kids because she was too weak and because of all the medication she was on and she weighed 73 lbs, this was like 8 yrs ago so she was 28 or 29ish. Its hard to watch your older sister go through this. Her feet were pointed forward from being in a hospital bed for so long.
Im telling you there was no hope for her in a worldly persons eyes. I even remember sometimes my mom would call me to pray for her and Id tell my mom I was worried and my mom would tell me that if Im going to doubt that she was going to hang up, she would tell me she doesnt want me to let doubt in. So we believed for a miracle. For like 13 years. I am here to tell you our miracle...My sister Melissa is as healthy as me today, she weighs 130lbs, she is pregnant with her 4th baby...her 4th baby!!! When the Dr's said no children for her, she chose not to accept that! She is an amazing story and I am so blessed to have witnessed such a miracle!!! I know this is a long comment but I wanted to share it with you. I am believing for a miracle for you. It seems impossible but it is possible. It is!!! I know another lady that had her tubes tied and shes had 4 kids since. If God has a plan for you, nobody can stop Him. Dont give up hope, please...God has a plan for you Psalm 37:4-Delight in the Lord and He WILL give you the desires of your heart. I am believing for you still. Love you in Christ, Vikki
Vicki, that is an amazing amazing story! It does give me hope. You're certainly a testament that God DOES create miracles! I can't thank you enough for all your support and comments!! :)
ReplyDeleteCaligirl, 9 follies is wonderful! I only had 4, and ended up getting 3 eggs-which all 3 naturally fertilized beautifully and created embryos! You will surely end up getting AT LEAST 3 eggs! You never know what can happen out of those 3 eggs!! It only takes 1!! :) Hang in there girl, stay positive. Keep us updated.