I don't know the reason, but He does.

I don't get it.  

 

I will probably never get it.  

 

But that's ok, I don't have to get it.  

It doesn't really matter.  

 

That's what faith is for.  

 

God knows why, He has the answers, one day when I'm with Him, I will know.  

 

For now, I will trust Him and know that He has an amazing plan for us!  

 

After all, that's exactly what He tells us in Jeremiah 29:11 

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, they are plans for good and not to harm you, to give you a hope and a future"

So things have been getting better for us.
As you know, Roger and I have been in the process of healing from our loss with IVF, it is going better for me, but now Roger is kind of stuck in the grieving process.
I have two amazing "God" stories to share with you.  The first one is, since we've discovered where Roger is at (and me too) and realized that we should probably reach out for some counseling for a few sessions or something, so we began looking into it.  We weren't really finding anyone that could relate to what we're going through.  So today at church, some friends of ours who know what we've been going through came up to us and said that they had just met a couple (who are in the Air Force as well-he's a Col.) and they do infertility counseling for couples and they gave us their numbers and told us that they told them a little bit about our story and wanted to meet with us!  How funny is that?!  Total God thing!!  The night before Roger and I are talking about needing this and here God shows up in a huge way the next day and basically hands us the numbers of this couple!  How cool eh?!  So we called them today and he's meeting with Roger tomorrow morning, and later that evening they are both meeting with us!  I'm so excited about this and the best part is they themselves went through infertility while he was in pilot training and so they know all too well the struggles we are going through in more than one aspect.  Now they have 3 beautiful kids, and I can't wait to hear their story.  Gosh moral of the story...ask God, He will provide!!  Literally!!

So here's another amazing story that happened again this same weekend; so I'm in the bathroom getting ready while Roger and Aiden are out Christmas shopping and I just stop and sit down in the chair in the bathroom and just began praying.  I broke down and just had some time with God about where I'm at and about all the hopes I have in adoption and whether we should pursue adoption now or wait until we're settled at our permanent duty station (2 more years) and what we should do.  I was just asking God, "give me a clear sign, show me Lord, just put it in our hands what we are supposed to do about this adoption thing!"  Roger and I need some more time to heal of course from our loss and switch gears into adoption, but it won't be long for us because we have been wanting, praying, and waiting to adopt for many years now.  So I'm just praying, praying and praying.  Then Roger and Aiden come home, and I finish up praying and come out to greet them.  Roger has a box in his hands from checking the mail.  We're excited and open the box, inside are wrapped Christmas presents for us from our sweet family, and at the bottom is a Christmas card.  We open up the Christmas card and inside is a check for $500 for our "adoption fund".  Can you believe that!?  Is that God speaking clearly or what!?  JUST after I finished praying!  The timing of this couldn't have happened any better.  God is good, His timing is perfect.  Just like in our loss, and in adoption.  Just like when mom told me, "maybe that baby just needs you sooner".  I feel God moving us quickly into adoption and we are scared, but so so excited about this.
We just had to share with you the amazing way God is moving in our hearts, and in our lives.